“The bigger the crowd, the bigger my habit got,” says Eminem in the latest issue of GQ. 

“I’m very much a creature of habit,” the rapper tells the mag. “If I’m used to waking up in the morning and having [a Red Bull], I could do it every morning for the next ten years straight until I find something else to move on to. So if I’m used to taking a Vicodin when I wake up in the morning because I’m hungover from ­drinking or taking pills…” and the rapper trails off…

Here are excerpts from the article:

On rehab:
“Every addict in rehab feels like everyone’s staring at them. With me? Everyone was staring at me.”

On why he finally sought help:
“I had a feeling in my arm that was weird, man. Like, it really freaked me out. So I went to some people I trust and said, ‘Look, I know I need help. I’m ready now.’ I got a room in the same hospital where I overdosed, and I detoxed.”

On addiction:
“I wish I was wired like a regular person and could go have a f*ckin’ drink. But that’s the biggest thing about addiction: When you realize that you cannot f*ck around with nothing ever again. I never understood when people would say it’s a disease. Like, ‘Stop it, dickhead. It’s not a disease!’ But I finally realized it really is.”